PAINFUL BY KISSES WISH OF A LONELY MAN

i try to pass this grave yard to see you again
it's been six years past through my live without you by my side
the day you die
and leave me forever
it feels
like it happened yesterday
all those bad memories
just...
still stick inside of me
being a dark shadow that always snares me with endless guides me to end my life
that's always limp and fragile without you
here i am, in front of your broken grave with a gun in my right hand prepare to finish
all this guilty feelings
Please dont't leave me alone
i'am so desperate and broken
the only thing that appears in my head
just a suicide way
this gun fully loaded
just like they wish for me
a wish that's gonna make me see you again
in heaven...